Return to Go.
This last week has been extremely stressful. Miscarriage at the tenth week. 20% of pregnancies end this way. We are just a statistic. This is one of those moments when character becomes more relevant than statistics. We look at it as having been handed the “Return to go” card. I am very proud of Nicole. On top of the emotional issues that affect both of us she had to deal with medical complications. She showed courage and determination.
We are resilient. A lot of sadness of course, but we had taken good care all along to be realistic about this being an embryo. We lost an embryo, not a baby. The inevitable has slightly changed our plan, not our objective. We are back to square zero and will be back at it with renewed energy once Nicole will have recovered physically.
We take some positives out of this tragic experience.
We had exceptional support from people around us. Our gratitude goes particularly to Danny and Guylaine in Trois-Rivières, to Simon in Québec-City, to Dr. Line Blackburn and the medical staff in Québec-City and to Nicole’s parents.
We learned a lot about the local health system, we understood the deficiencies of our nearly inexistent emergency plan and we are more determined than ever to make a baby, which means that our further plans will likely be postponed by a few months because the circumstances are such that we’d rather do it in a health system that we know.
Writing is therapeutic too. I’ve been writing a lot these days and will likely do a lot of it in the near future.